So today I have a true, genuine prayer that I have been praying for many years now. Maybe God's answer to this is no. Maybe it is not right now or maybe I have not been serious enough and truly crying out to Him.
I pray for a specific temptation and sin of the mind to be gone. I pray with all of my heart for this to be taken from me and that I would truly be able to say that it is not an issue in my life any longer. This one particular sin causes me so much shame and guilt when I let my mind run away from me. It distracts me, it blinds me to reality, it puts me into a lazy, bad mood, it is disgusting and evil. I feel as though I am being fired at with flaming arrows. I feel that the times when things are going well, it's just a matter of time before this ugly evil comes knocking on my mind again. Lord, PLEASE, free me from this evil temptation. I desire to honor you with my life and I desire for you to be my #1 always. My flesh is weak and probably displays that other things are above You, but I do not mean for that to happen. All I want is You Lord.
I long and yearn for the day when I get to be in your presence. Away from all this evil and heartache. Away from sin and pain and guilt. But Lord, I have so many family members and friends that do not know you yet. I pray that I can be a light in their dark lives and that they might see you in me. Forgive me where I fail you. Forgive me when my flesh is selfish. Help me to be consistent in my walk with you. Help me to always see the ways out of temptations and evil paths.
I also desire for my family to be in the best shape financially than we ever have. I pray that we can learn to manage the money you give us so well that we have savings, we have extra to be able to help and serve others. I desire to be out of debt, to have our own home that is big enough to have people over and many fellowships. I pray for us to make wise and better decision with the money that You bless us with each month.
Thank you Father for hearing me! Lead me, direct me, guide me to be the man You created me to be. Help me to say NO to ungodliness and worldly desire. Teach me to walk in Your truth!!
